Well, Karen, I hate to say, your shopping-around-for-teachers attitude is to me nothing but the telltale sign of a self-indulging want of self-confidence ! You might feel at ease right now with your new voice shrink, and still the same old balks are bound to come in the way at some point, as long as you haven't truly brushed them aside once for all. Remember : a vocal coach takes money from you. Imagine you were a pauper. Could you afford to focus that much on your own flaws, or would you rather bank on what you are, no matter how good or bad, to achieve something in life ? Don't you think it's a bit of a luxury, of a wealthy idleness, to be so picky, so fussy, about people whose main onus you decide is to fill the gaps in your well-groomed little self ? I daresay this unfortunately verges on indecency towards people coming from tougher walks of life, yet seriously committed to their goal, art, craft, whatever you call it. Also, I found it rather careless from you to gauge teachers according to their promptitude to respond to your own pattern of concerns, as if you were denying them the validity of their own often lifelong experience. You might be the one who sets the goals, calls the shots for yourself, then roughly speaking it's not a teacher you need : it's a mirror (or any sound recording device). Now if you really feel you must undergo the inescapably painstaking process of blindly following a Master's instructions, because he or she is a million times better than you in what you're craving for, then go for it, humbly play your disciple's part, that is, provisionally shush this interloping critical mind of yours, yes, stupidly ape your paragon, until the time is ripe for full-fledged launching, and thank your patient, lenient Master or any God you trust in for so mercifully endowing you with such precious knowledge ! You can't be master and disciple, or (cheer)leader and (cheered-up)follower at the same time. So much for dillydallying ! Wishing you the very best, though Bart
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