Milena,
As someone who has spent many years at tough conservatories, I know how stressful "talk" is. And it runs RAMPANT. You must try to sift through this and still listen to your heart. I know this sounds cliche, but trust me. It's not. You know inside what is right, and if you're not sure, do your research until you are. And don't rely on young, under-confident, academic singers to provide this information. Read up on pedagogy. Sit in on other lessons, if you feel comfortable doing this. Ask your teacher to sit down with you and talk about your lessons. Of course don't tell her what is being said, but it is perfectly understandable that a student should want to fully understand in what direction her teacher has her going. Tell her about your vocal problems, and see what she has to say. Your teacher should never be the enemy, and by listening to these rumors and taking them as truth, you are putting her in that position yourself.
I feel that if we don't have the confidence to open up to our teachers about our deepest vocal concerns, we need to find a new teacher.
This may definitely conflict with other feelings in the group, but as with all opinions, listen to them all and make the choice yourself.
Good luck, Lauren
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